She give ne one hug

I my self know better who I am and what I am. I will not show my feelings to other, especially to my parents. I'm not so close to them It's maybe because I'm not a showy person. I guess I haven't properly nurture by my parents or else it's just nature to me. I blame no one else because I know that I have my mistakes to. Sometimes I really want to be alone I hate people go along with me.
I always irritate with someone without any valid reason. I easily hate thing happen. I feel to live in this world is not full of happiness. I'm always not in a right mood. I don't really want to laugh I hates their jokes. I'm not so sensitive with the other's feeling. I didn't care anyone else. I feel obviously jealous even with my brother and sister. I want my parents give to me their attention. The greediness and selfishness exist in my way. Even my friends they feel they are neglected . They really feel that I had changed . When I do bad and any wrong to someone I also feel guilty. I always feel bored.
On those times I think I'm not important in this world. I ask my self, what's the purpose of life in the world? That question reach up in my mind.
One day my mother feel me, she came along. I did not greet her, I feel nothing,the same as I saw something faraway from the distance.
She said to me, "what happen with you my son?" I replied "nothing". I don't know what she think of and go along with her mind.
I know you have a problem, my mother told me. She sat near to me and said how much she love my brother and sister and mostly to me. I guess those words new and stranger to me, and I feel something better. My mother gave her one hug and I feel more than better. I feel refreshed.
With the end of those times I feel better and I renew my self, I feel vigorous of some activities, Interested with all things new for me. Now I do more socializing with my friends and others. For me, attention of a parents are very important to change the values and lives of their child.